Os anos foram passando, os bebés cresceram. Todas as noites eu chorava, lembrava-me da minha família, mas o meu gémeo… sentia a sua falta incondicionalmente!!

  Já não tinha forças para continuar!

  Acordei de manhã, fazia-me chorar, queria adormecer e nunca mais acordar!! De repente, apercebi-me, isto foi o que aconteceu à minha mãe, à biológica, não queria isto para mim… Quero morrer!!! Comecei a chorar, decidi por uma música violenta para me abstrair! Pus: The little piece of heaven. Do Avenged Sevenfold.

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Before the story begins, here’s a touch of sin, for me to take what's mine, until the end of time
We were more than friends, before the story ends,
And I will take what's mine, create what
God would never design

Our love had been so strong for far too long,
I was weak with fear that
something would go wrong,
before the possibilities came true,
I took all possibility from you
Almost laughed myself to tears,
conjuring her deepest fears

Must have stabbed her fifty fucking times,
I can't believe it,
Ripped her heart out right before her eyes,
Eyes over easy, eat it eat it eat it

She was never this good in bed
even when she was sleeping'
now she's just so perfect I've
never been quite so fucking deep in
it goes on and on and on,
I can keep you looking' young and preserved forever,
with a fountain to spray on your youth whenever

'Cause I really always knew that my little crime
would be cold that's why I got a heater for your thighs
and I know, I know it's not your time
but bye, bye
and a word to the wise when the fire dies
you think it's over but it's just begun
but baby don't cry

You had my heart, at least for the most part
'cause everybody's gotta die sometime, we fell apart
let's make a new start
'cause everybody's gotta die sometime yeah
but baby don't cry

Possibilities I'd never considered,
are occurring the likes of which I'd never heard,
Now an angry soul comes back from beyond the grave,
to repossess a body with which I'd misbehaved

Smiling right from ear to ear
Almost laughed herself to tears

Must have stabbed him fifty fucking times
I can't believe it
Ripped his heart out right before his eyes
Eyes over easy
Eat it eat it eat it

Now that it's done I realize the error of my ways
I must venture back to apologize from somewhere far beyond the grave

I gotta make up for what I've done
'Cause I was all up in a piece of heaven
while you burned in hell, no peace forever

'Cause I really always knew that my little crime
would be cold that's why I got a heater for your thighs
and I know, I know it's not your time
but bye, bye
and a word to the wise when the fire dies
you think it's over but it's just begun
but baby don't cry

You had my heart, at least for the most part
'Cause everybody's gotta die sometime, we fell apart
Let's make a new start
'Cause everybody's gotta die sometime yeah
But baby don't cry

I will suffer for so long
(What will you do, not long enough)
To make it up to you
(I pray to God that you do)
I'll do whatever you want me to do
(Well then I'll break you unchained)
And if it's not enough
(If it's not enough, If it's not enough)
If it's not enough
(Not enough)
Try again
(Try again)
And again
(And again)
Over and over again

We're coming back, coming back
We'll live forever, live forever
Let's have wedding, have a wedding
Let's start the killing, start the killing

Do you take this man in death for the rest of your unnatural life?
(Yes, I do.)
Do you take this woman in death for the rest of your unnatural life?
(I do)
I now pronounce you...

'Cause I really always knew that my little crime
would be cold that's why I got a heater for your thighs
and I know, I know it's not your time
but bye, bye
And a word to the wise when the fire dies
you think it's over but it's just begun
but baby don't cry

You had my heart, at least for the most part
'Cause everybody's gotta die sometime, we fell apart
Let's make a new start
'Cause everybody's gotta die sometime yeah
But baby don't cry

  Esta música sempre era mais “assustadora”.

  Estava com uma depressão, e com tendências suicidas. Já tinha arrancado muitos cabelos, isto tinha que parar! Eu tinha que parar!

  Eu e o Duarte já nem dormíamos na mesma cama! Eu amava-o tanto! Como é que isto foi acontecer?

  Se pudesse voltar a trás no tempo tudo isto mudava!

  Tomei uma decisão! Ia morrer! Mas antes de morrer, tinha que ver o Ricardo pela última vez!

  Deixei um bilhete ao Duarte que dizia o seguinte:

  “ Duarte, quero que saibas que te amo, com todas as minhas forças! Amo-te, mais que tudo! Mas desculpa, esta não foi a vida que eu escolhi! Adeus!.... Amo-te!...”

  Assim me despedi.

  Descobri que agora, o Ricardo morava em Las Vegas com a Sandy e os filhos. Fui a Las Vegas, e corri tudo à sua procura… até que… lá estava ele…

  Não me atrevi a falar com ele, não lhe queria estragar a felicidade. Limitei-me a observá-lo de longe…

  Comecei a pensar, será que ele pensa em mim? Que tem saudades minhas? Que também gostava de me voltar a ver? Mas bastou olhar para a sua cara para perceber que ele estava feliz de mais para pensar em mim…

  Já tinha decidido como é que ia morrer, ia falar com os Antigos.

  Encontrei-os algures em Los Angeles.

  - MATEM-ME!! – Pedi-lhes.

  - Bom, podíamos recusar, mas a verdade é que queremos fazer isto! – Disse a rapariga.

  - Então não recusem!

  Eles apontaram-me uma coisa esquisita de mais. No segundo a seguir, já não estava consciente… a morte era fácil, toda aquela dor… não doía… Finalmente… O Fim!